I am Pregnant!

OH MY FREAKIN GOSH!!!

I AM PREGNANT!!!

I can't hardly believe this. I'm 5 days late from my period now, and I already check with urine pregnancy test. I check on the 3rd and the 4th day after my period is due, and I got both double line!!! It is still faint, but hell yeah I got double line..!! 

I tell myself to be secretive about this, but fuck that, I am happy and whoever said that I can keep my mouth shut is wrong. I just keep telling everybody and they don't even have to ask me, I just start the conversation under the topic of Family, or Children, or Back pain, or Cramps, or Fatigue, or Faint, etc and suddenly I am busy talking about my pregnancy.

I am sure I must sound like an annoying little bitch. I think after this 1 month pass, I would be myself again. Thanks the Lord heaven and earth for this! For my pregnancy! For my baby! And we already have names for our baby :) :) If he's a boy, then his name will be CE. And if she's a girl, her name will be CS. <3 Love you baby

Anyway, I love my pregnancy. Except for the serious back pain and the endless streaming pee from my VJJ. I keep on going to the toilet, and drying my VJJ with tissue paper after peeing. I think my VJJ's skin have been pound with tissue like a pounded beef. Haha. Mind my expression.

But then, I love my husband. He is so happy when I tell him that I'm pregnant. He can't stop from covering his mouth. Because he was so shocked! Love you to pieces my darling :)

Will update soon about my pregnancy progress. Thanks God, thanks husband, thanks for this blessing :)

BABIES

I am trying to get pregnant.

Yes. I am trying. Eh, WE are trying. 'We' means my husband and I. Duh.

Anyway, I don't know that it would be so hard to get pregnant. Before this, all I know was if you make love (sex) with someone, then you gonna be popping babies 9 months later. I mean, it sure looks easy in the movies..! *sigh*

I am literally exhausted researching ways to conceive. It's only been 5 months after I got married, but people around have been continuously asking if my tummy is bulging because of there's someone inside (Amen). To make things worse, my tummy is reallyyy am bulging. It's like my tummy is angry at me for not exercising, and because of that, for every 100 calories I ate, I will gain 100 gm of fats.

I don't even know that there's some position in making love that can increase the chances of getting pregnant. Wow. Or there's some certain days in a month that have higher chances to get conceive (cause there's some days I am really fertile). Choices of food also affect woman's fertility. Wow! I'm lacking knowledge of everything.

I hope I get pregnant soon. It's heartbreaking to see my husband sad. I know he wants baby more than me. Sometimes when I pray, I said "God, I know that I said that I hope You bless us with children in Your time, but can You make it faster?". Haha. I know it's wrong to ask for something like that, but yeah, I kinda need one right now.

There's this symptom which if a woman really wants to get pregnant, her body will react and give indication that she is pregnant. She will get nausea, morning sickness, backache and sometimes feel movement in her belly.

I am so afraid if I get that. I think I did get that last month *sad face*. I mean nausea and vomiting. Shit. I'm getting crazy. CRAZY. So for this month, I keep on telling myself that I should be sane during this period. I should only check myself after 1 week after my period is due (last month my period late 2 days which is heartbreaking. I even talk to my tummy!)

I really hope that this month I'm going to get pregnant. I hope the little sperm didn't get lost in my VJJ since it's a maze down there; or run out of focus (I mean forgot why they are there). I sometimes forgot why I'm doing certain activity in the middle of doing it. I hope they don't share that trait. Haha.

Miau,

Tuesday Evening in Office

I hear about weird stories in my office floor. They said they saw a woman, a tall man, a white cloth, long hair, a child running around, a voice calling out names. But then, it remains as a story. Yesterday, 21 July 2015, I encounter incidents which I can't explained.

It's 6 o'clock in the evening, and I'm still in the office. You may thought that i'm taking overtime, but it's not. I'm trying to finish my Korean movie marathon of "Heartstrings", I hate that Gyu Won girl, her character is so stupid. Who the heck wants to be someone slave for 1 month? But then, I like Yong Hwa so I keep on watching.

After episode 6, I decided to go back and continue my movie marathon at home (since we have wifi there, thanks Mom for subscribing streamyx). Before I pack my stuff, I went to the bathroom to do some ladies business. But then after a few minutes inside the toilet, the light went off.  "Mati karen.." I said that in my heart. SESB had an amazing history in making 'romantic nights' everyday, that's the reason why we got tons of candles in my house.

A few minutes after that, I went out from the toilet. Then, I found something weird. The lights outside were on! I looked at the toilet switch, and someone switched it off. As I walked to my office room, I ponder about it.

It can't be 'someone', cause I'm the last person here. Everyone went home already.
It can't be 'someone', cause I didn't hear any sound of footsteps.
It can't be 'someone', cause I didn't hear any door being open or closed.
It can't be 'someone', cause I didn't even hear any switching on and off of the lights.
Oh well, it was probably 'something' not 'someone'.

So, I pack my stuff quietly and switch off all the lights and air-con. After making sure every electric appliances are switched off, I went home.

In conclusion, ghost are so lazy. What is the use to switch off only one light, alang-alang switch off all the lights and air-con so I don't need to do it.

MY BOSS'S SECRETARY IS A PAIN IN THE ASS

Do you have that one colleague who can't do a single thing right? Or his/her presence don't mean a thing in the office?? Or they only know to back-stab others instead of doing their job to get to the top???

F*ck all the secretary in the rest of the world cause I found a winner. Winner for the 'Best In Doing Nothing- Secretary'. Range? The WORLD. Oh wait, make it UNIVERSE. The winner is... *drums* My Boss's Secretary!!! Mrs. Know-It-All.

Let me introduce you to her. She play Facebook all day. When I say all day, I mean it. The WHOLE FREAKIN DAY. When she was given task to do, for example, update my boss about the attendance of who will come for the launching ceremony from 2 (two) company. You know what she will do? She will call frantically to the company for 30 minutes (after she receive the task), then play Facebook (if the company don't pick the phone). The she call again at 1.00pm (rest time), then maybe at 3pm. Then complain about how many works she have done. What the fuck lady.  Then my boss will pity her, and tell us how she (Mrs. Know-It-All) have done a lot of great thing. Bitch.

There's one thing I really admire her. It's the quota of her stomach. She can eat a LOTTTTTTTTTTT like 2 plates of rice, 3 times taking the chicken masak merah, vegetables (she's not a fan of vegetables), 2 times drinking the coffee (big cup) + (a lot of sugar), snacks, 2 times taking the fish, eating cake 2 times, another snacks, more to come! She can eat that in 30 minutes! She eat a lot! Wow! And even tapau if the food not finish yet.  Come on lady, you are fat, why do you want to get fatter?

Some more, she even call me fat when I'm like 20kg lighter than her! So if I'm fat, then you are a freakin whale-walrus hybrid. Damn. I hate myself when I'm angry. She don't pick up the phone when office's phone are ringing. She give people task and said that it is from my boss. She even blame whatever wrong she is doing to other people! And the sad thing is, my boss believe her. Damn. 

Btw, if you think that my boss like her cause she's pretty, you get it wrong. My boss is a woman with children. And that secretary of hers is a 50-year old lady. Maybe that's why my boss believe her so much cause she's old. But age doesn't come with knowledge! Buel Buek Buek I hate her! 

I will have my revenge.

Angrily,

Grace The Destroyer :-[ 

My Awesome Fiancee

He smells amazingly refreshing!

His name is Andy and currently 27 years old (2014). He is cute and charming and lovable, and yes I do sounds annoying. But apart of me being annoying, I have to proudly admit that he is the most amazing man I ever encountered. 

He loves sports and gym. He sings the most romantic rock love songs to me, which I don't get it at the first place. I know he used to feel embarrassed when he saw me dance like a crazy lady whenever I heard my jam on the radio, or in the shopping mall, or in the elevator. But I know the embarrassment feeling fades away by time cause I saw him dance like a little kitty cat to 'Joy to the world' song in shopping mall last Christmas. 

He likes wearing pink, or bright colours cause he said he can pull it off. He likes Luffy from One Piece anime character, and he actually think that he is Luffy in real life. I saw his straw hat, and he always pair it with his red button shirt (to look like Luffy). He forgot that Luffy don't wear spectacles.

He is 20% annoying at times, and when his manja time come, his annoyingness blasted to 80%. He will act like my 3 year old nephew, Gabby, and demand for everything to go in his way. He even pouted his lips so that I can see clearly that he is being a manja big baby brat. 

Aside from the little negative things that he have, he have the purest soul I ever met. He loves God, he love his family, he loves animals, and though he don't admit it, I know he can't stand looking at sad crying faces. He is a gentleman (which I looooovvvvvee to the max) and mostly I love him cause he do what he said. He said he loves me, and he said he wants to get married with me, and the next thing I knew, he ask my mother for my hand in marriage.

I'm writing this in the morning cause I can't sleep.

I've been this lady who keep on falling in love with the wrong guy over and over again. Even my puppy love I keep on giving my childish heart to the wrong boy. They (male species) keep on hurting my feelings, but then I believe I would have someone that truly cherish me someday. So I keep on trying.

After gazillions of reading books about good and bad relationship (okay, maybe I only read 2 or 3 books), I finally got it! Relationship are all about mind games! I mean if you want to have a long-lasting relationships. I applied it, and wallllaaaa.. Guys actually fall for me!

But then after a while, I guess I'm fed up with this mind game. The biggest liar is the one who lie to his heart. I keep on falling for the wrong guy, maybe the wrong time.

INTI Beauty Peagent 2010

Hey peeps.. Im going to talk about beauty pageants again this time (duhh..). Yes, I LOVE PAGEANTS. I always got money when I join one. When you know you got something to offer, why waste it right?

I once join Beauty Peagent event host by INTI College on 30th Oct 2010. It is kinda shocking and also thrilling coz this is the first time i join beauty peagent. It is so different from Unduk Ngadau! But I like it. I like it more. There is more to do, more stress (haha~). But as we always know, more things to do means there is a lot of consequences. I win that peagent, but i also lost a friend.

1st round is Introduction which each contestant have to introduce the traditional that they are wearing then walk around the stage and show what you've got!I show them my butt but I don't think the judges loving it coz I don't win that round.

2nd round is Talent Time. I bring out my church's guitar (tqs Adam for lending that) and sang 'Bitter Heart' (tqs Addrey for teaching me how to play) by Zee Avi. I tell you, I sang soooooo ugly and I can see Mion (my lil sista) do her between-encouragement-face-and-a -mirk. I feel so down but I sang my heart out anyway.

3rd round is Evening Gown. My dress is probably the cheapest there since it's only RM99. The other contestant's dress look like there are worth more than RM99. I have a little belly which Mion call Kevin (Asia's biggest loser-Kevin) and it pops out when I wear that dress. Mion say I need to walk like Kimora. But then my make-up artist and also my friend, Lucy, said that I need not to move my hand too much. I'm kinda confuse but then I walk like..I don't know..

While waiting for results to come, I eat two biscuits. I ate like I never eat before because I am so damn hungry! I offer to one of the contestant (which is a model) but she refuse to eat it. I think she saw me eating like a pig.

And then, the organizer call me to the stage. At first, I'm kinda blur what's going on, but then they give selendang and it states there, "MISS TALENT". Haha~ I laugh because I know how bad my singing is.

That's not the ending but, I dont wanna tell you the result. :)