Unduk Ngadau Tombovo

Dear readers,
I just won a KadazanDusun beauty pageant recently. The piala is so huge, i find it hard to carry actually.

See..im telling the truth

Anyway, i have my first day period on that day which i only knew when Charles( make-up artist) do my face. I have cramps backstage, and i almost cry for all the pain from the tangkong (belts), himpogot and period.
When i go back home, i found out the pin i use so the shirt stick with the skirt are open (terbuka). So the needle is poking me all this time, and that adds up the pain i felt.

TOP 8

That's the top 8! I look faaaatttt.. haha~ The one with the hats are traditional costume from Papar district. Beside me is using..uhmm.. I donow but most of us are wearing KadazanDusun traditional costume from Penampang.

I finally sit on that chair!

Anyway, i finally won :P I pray really hard coz I want that crown and the money. Money for thesis baby..haha~

I like the contestant this one, coz they are all very nice. They know I have cramps from period and they help me.No jealousy or talking behind others back. I like it!

Thanks judges, thanks Charles, thanks mummy (for money) and thank my beautiful family for being there walaupun saya kasi abis duit kamu :P

KILL THESIS NOW

I am so fed up with doing and correcting thesis. It is damn boring and I really hate it so much. I feel like I just want to throw away my thesis and let Paragasu (our house dog) eat it. Then maybe I give him my laptop for dinner..

With all this formatting, and comparing to others study, and money to use for printing, the hard-cover again.. haish... I can't use my money while I'm dating just now coz I have to have enough money for that damn thesis! And Sanchez can't spend money for me so much too coz he got his thesis also! Haish haish haish haish...

I want to eat in Kenny Rogers pun I can't, so we eat at Pizza Hut. Heyaa... THESIS!! I will burn you after this!

Law Of Attraction

Ola! 

This will be an interesting segment for today, what is the law of attraction in this world? Tadaaa... (Just imagine if got some music behind)

I get this from my sister coz she read a book about this. Since she don't have any blog, so i am happily to steal what she says to put it inside my blog (harharharharhar!)

Law of attraction says 'You will attract people that have the same vibe as yours'. For example, you are miserable, then you attract miserable people too. I'm just quoting what she says. Ok. 

Grumpy people will attracts grumpy people

I think it's true coz I knew someone which is miserable. She cheats(!) with someone else's husband(!!) and she thinks my bf is ugly-which is so not true(!!!). She always attracts people who is a cheater too, someone else's husband too, and ugly (i hate her). She even said that and realize that. See???

Maybe you give different aura to certain people and they will find that you're very attractive. When you're sweet, ants will come right? Last time, before I met Sanchez (my HOT bf), I am egoistic and a brat. All the guys (ex-bfs) I fall in love is as same as me. Very rebellious. Than after I've been heart-broken by you-know-who, I change my attitude to a hot-sexy-lady..haha~ No. I change to be a much matured thinking, then I met Sanchez which wants to be in a steady relationship just like what I’m searching for.

When i wear a crown, a prince come suddenly :)

I think it’s true. Yup yup. Long made short, try to be HOT, SEXY and BEAUTIFUL, you will attract those hot guys around :P

Why Ghost movies have to be..?

I wonder why ghost movies have to be dark..Coz all ghost don't only appear during the nights you know. I heard there's someone in my kampung 'dirasuki' during the day by the spirit of the person she attend funeral on that day. So, why?? It makes people afraid of the night, and making me sleep with the light on and wasting electricity. haish.

hey girl,ghost behind you!!!

The next thing, why almost all the ghost is female.. I've seen less male ghost in the cinema. What? Male go to heaven and female stay on earth? Discrimination of female ghost. Hate the director.

this one is creepy

After that why ghost must have long hair? It's weird you know. No dead man(human) can grow hair after they die. It's the truth. No regeneration of cells. So, why suddenly when the body is buried between the ceilings then her hair grows pass the cement and strangle who ever lives in the house?? Stupid shit. Then i'm afraid if my hair will strangle me if i accidentally put poop on my hair.

(palis..palis..)

Change la director.. People are the scarriest thing in the world, not ghost. And ghost is friendly like Casper.. :P not like Ju-on. I think (God, hear my prayer..)

I throw her bowl!!!

Yes!!! Finally, i have the courage to throw her bowl inside the rubbish bin! Yes!!

She is so annoying, she just put all her stuff on the sink, and leave it there rotten until she wants to use it back. Oh well, I just throw it away and that's just what i did. (HOORAY!)

My housemate is very dirty. Excluding my roomate, they are all very clean. I am very sure our room smells very nice like a garden of flowers. When i pass my neighbour room, they produce smells like something die in there. You know like they keep lizards dead body to spice up their food. They even sleep on a bed which have no bedsheets. Don't they know how dirty the bed is? And i'm pretty sure they don't use perfume.

I'm not saying that you must sleep with the bedsheets on, the thing is tihey're very dirty. I hate her..... Kidding. I just don't like she is being not clean. I don't like dirty things and dirty food. Even before i kiss my bf, i ask him to eat mint flavoured candy so his mouth smells fresh. (I love him, i will kiss him even when his mouth stinks after eating fish curry, but i will avoid it :P)

That's all. Love you!

EXAM and things that matters.

Hell...O!!
First of all i would like to tell all of you that i finish exam already. I'm not going to yell hooray or anything that sounds fun coz its not. My last paper sucks, and i don't understand a thing my lecturer said (he is Arabian, so his english is quite to understand. But i love him anyway coz he's trying so hard to teach us). The question is hard, and that's all i can say about that.

Anyway for other things, my long time bestfriend call me just know. We've been none friends for about 2 years i think (some problem). Then, what i learn today is about forgiveness. I should forgive people. When i forgive her, i can feel my burden just lift away. Anything about the saying or any peribahasa about forgiveness is true. It really makes your heart happy.

There's a saying that goes like this " When you forgive someone, you learn that you are freeing yourself from your own cage". Cool ey? I feel like that. We talk like old times, and jokes around with our situation. I like that. I like this. Love you girlfriend :)

One more thing, i live in dorm. Our bathroom is filled with rubbish (food..and yep, pad.Yucks!) I recognize the person already, she is so pengotor! I kinda hate her. I take her bowl and sampah and put it under the sink which the toilet seat is put there. If tomorrow she don't do anything, maybe i will throw all her stuff inside the rubbish bin. I'll think i do that, it seems like a very good idea.

Why i have the nerve to do that? She leave her stuff there (bowl, fork, spoon, rubbish) for a month, and then when she wants to use it, then she clean it. The bathroom stinks you know because of her. She needs education about hygiene. She needs someone to tell her that she's wrong. She needs to marry a rubbish bin.

Anyway, that's all for me today. MMMuuuuaaaHH! love grace~

It's ENOUGH. Let him go.

Dear readers, i'm posting this especially for my cousin. She may not know that i know her condition all this while, but i know. Someone told me. From a good source too.

Breaking- up is hard. You break feelings, that's why they call it 'breaking-up'. Moving on is even harder. It breaks your soul.

To all people out there, who ever been telling your friend, or sister or some stranger that they should forget about their bf/gf or husband/wife for cheating or something, and you find it confusing or angry coz they are so hard to listen to what you say, it is because it is hard. Things like this is hard. I've been there, and it took me MONTHS to move on from my ex-boyfriend.

I cry, and cry every night. I pray, and pray everyday. I think, and think about him all the time. Life is not easy. But for those out there, thinking that forgetting him is the best way, stop. It's not.

1)Pity yourself first. Cry, moan, tell your friend how you feel. Cry! I cry for about 1-2 months. I listen to sad songs, I listen to our song, and i cry whenever i go (really!and i'm ashamed of it actually). I cry and pity myself until i'm tired of crying, untul i'm bored being sad.

2)Accepting that he/she is gone. This is the hard part. Accepting. I find this is the hardest of all. He don't sms me, or call. Why? Busy? No. People say, even if you love someone, you find ways or just for a few seconds to call just to hear their voice. Don't make excuses. Even if my current bf is super-hell busy from 5.00 am to 2.00 am the next day, he managed to steal few minutes of time to sms me asking if i already take my food. No calls, no sms for 3 or 5 days in a row? What are you? God? Even God have lots of things to do but He still manage to hear we pray. So learn to accept that he don't love you. In my case, my ex-bf cheats.

3) Believe in love again. I'm not telling you to find other guy or girl to be in love with. All i'm just saying is don't close your heart. Just because you have bad relationship doesn't mean others should have bad relationship too. Love doesn't come only from your lover, you can get love from your family, your friends, your dog. It is still LOVE. You're single doesn't mean you're miserable.

That's my version of moving on. For you my cousin, please stop your affair with someone's husband. You are desperate. He is making his move leaving you, and it is good. Creating a new fb account to chat with him is desperate and stupid. He only call you when he need you. Even if he still wants to have relationship with you, do you still want to be in this condition forever? Crying every night? Feeling sad? Relationship is not that. It is full of laughter and happiness.

You will always be his number 2 (maybe 3 or 4). Why if he say he loves you so much, he don't leave his wife? For the sake of their children? No. I have a friend who leave her children for someone (not her husband). Move on sista! Don't be a fool. You have a lot of things ahead of you. Holding him inside your heart will not change things. If you wanna move on, let him go. Imagine your heart is your hands; you can't hold 2 balls using only one hand, you need two. But the thing is, your heart is only one. You have to let go the ball you're holding now to have another new ball.

Move on, I mean it. It's sad to see you like this. I have done it, and so can you. All the best. God bless.